Breakdown.

So it finally happened. The unexplainable deafening wireless static at the end of OWOC's Christmas presentation dress rehearsal pushed me over the edge. I totally lost it and broke down into a million tears.

Now, in hindsight, it's absolutely hilarious. It's quite astonishing that I've made it through the last three years of unexplainable hisses, buzzes, random static, inputs showing up or not showing up where they're supposed to, random drastic monitor changes, tripped breakers, and all kinds of other drama, withOUT breaking down....::reflecting::.............yes...quite impressive indeed.

Not exactly sure what caused the break. Kaleb & I were at eachother's throats the entire day (for what reason, I don't even remember). Couple that with a billion little projects going on at work, coupled with my bedroom (my home, my oasis) being in complete shambles because of my schedule, and simply not having enough hours of the day, and then add on a dress rehearsal (the last chance I had to get things together technically) and the audio not working the way I wanted it to... That was it. I completely BROKE...DOWN.

Some may be surprised to know I cry alot.(SHOOOOCKER!!!!) But seriously. I'm very emotional. I tend not to mind the fact I'm emotional, until I can't contain it in front of other people. Loosing it in the privacy of my bedroom is one thing. Loosing it in public...SUCKS. lol. And it wasn't like a weepy, cute little cry...oh no...It was the kind of cry where I couldn't even catch my breath. "I-I-I'm so sorry!!!!!!" I sobbed to Isaac & Sara. sigh. Forget about the audio. At that point, I was so embarrased about bawling I could care less about the audio, I just needed to stop crying. And the more I tried to stop, the worse it got. They stopped everything and prayed for me right then and there. Yea...you know it's bad when you get the drop everything emergency prayer.

sigh...my eyeballs were sore the next morning. (Just incase there was a chance of me forgetting my breakdown: FAIL!) I woke up, and drove immediately to the church. While I had peace of mind, I was not yet confident that I had everything together. Come to find out that the deafening static that came through my PA at the end of rehearsal was a TV station sitting on the same exact frequency that my mic was sitting on. So when I turned off the transmitter, the receiver picked up the station, blasted its signal through the PA, and as a result, everyone's ears bled. mm...lessons in wireless audio. >:( At least that issue was explainable. ::shrugg::

So the result. All the wireless audio for the OWOC Christmas Presentation was flawless. Quite honestly, at the moment of my breakdown, I kinda knew it would be. It's always when you're at the complete end of your rope that God steps in. And it just so happens, He never messes up.